Ok im f**king done with my life please help!?

If you ever notice, some of the popular girls are not all that pretty in reality. They look pretty because they present themselves as pretty, they act the part, that kind of thing, I'm sure you're not unattractive, but I know how easy it is to feel that way compared to all these other girls every day. 7th grade is a really rough time. This year and the next few will probably be the hardest in your life. But going through unpleasant, discouraging, and f*ed up things like you have makes you feel bad about yourself. Especially when it happened in different places by different people. It makes you feel like its you. But I promise you it's not. I don't know how to tell you how to do this, but if you can find a way to view yourself different everything will change for you. when you think bad things about yourself and don't have confidence, it's easy for people to take advantage of that weakness, even though you are probably a much stronger person than them. Also how you see yourself has a lot to do with how others see you. When you believe in yourself, you're posture is different, how you walk is different, your tone of voice, assertiveness, etc. So whether they are aware of it or not, people pick up on the fact that and treat you differently because of it.